Why did you say that? Why? I know you didn’t mean to and I know it was for fun and I know what you were trying to say but it rubs me the wrong way.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
Do I? Tell me, go on. Tell me, do I have a boyfriend? Do I, in this fucking town that only cares for physical appearance and shits on girls like me, have a boyfriend?
Have you not looked at me? I’m fat, I’m ugly, my hair is short, I don’t wear makeup. Do you think any of them would want me? Any guys here that would truly like me? For myself? That would be willing to look past my face and body enough to be attracted to me?
There are no guys like Finn. Not here. Maybe nowhere.
Maybe I should just accept I’m going to be single forever. That nobody will love this body, this mind. That nobody will look upon me and feel glad and feel love. At least not romantically.
How could you ask me that?